February 2012
29 posts
keeping
Today we finished shooting for the short. It was mostly guerrilla shooting at Trader Joe’s, Target and Best Buy. My costar felt like a rebel shooting without permits and all. The day ended with me in the bathtub and I learned one thing… I hate baths.. and I’m not one of those girls that looks sexy in one. Funny, yes. Sexy, no.
There is more work to do, of course. Editing...
full circle
I’ll admit the last couple of months have put a toll on me for many different reasons.
Adjusting to the demands of my career as well as my home life has really left me flustered. I learned one very important thing about myself through this process — I need a safe place to go home to at night. A place that is nice and tidy and encourages me and my dreams. I feel like the big wide...
Excited for...
I like being excited… I don’t really like gratitude lists because they often seem fake to me and just not me… But I can get down with getting excited lists… And, you know what? Spring is around the corner. Moving into my “own” place in 9 days and it’s time to get excited.
Today I’m excited for the fact I read this article this weekend how...
My roommate is moving out today. She just texted me and said she found blueberries under the couch.
Can we just have an “awe” moment together?!
What can I say… I love them.
Maybe it was the blueberry coffee I got this morning at 7 11. Maybe it was the sun. Maybe it was the extra long car ride to OC today where I had time to clear my head.
But hope has returned and my blue insides have turned a hopeful yellow. And for the first time this month I know I’ve got this and my life is imperfectly perfect just as it is…
Or maybe it’s the Holy...
You know you are busy when everyone is taking about a long weekend and you can’t even begin to fathom what kind of holiday is going on.
S.O.S.
I read somewhere that in life we balance five areas of our lives.
1) Health
2) Family
3) Romance
4) Home
5) Work/Finance
When 3 out of the 5 areas of your life are out of balance, it can stir a bunch of negative emotions to a boiling point. (Which is why I cry constantly these days and have the blues!)
Well, right now, 3 out of the 5 areas of my life are in flux.
ROMANCE - nada. And,...
“No matter what you have been through, you aren’t dead inside like you think you...”
– Erin Foster, Single Girls Guide: Valentine’s Shmalentine’s on HelloGiggles (via cutiepatchouli)
I’m working the hardest I’ve ever worked. And it still does not feel enough.
lov(e)
It would be a complete lie to say it’s not a little bit sad to not have that extra someone special on Valentine’s day.
Of course, I’d love to have dinner with someone tonight who I am as much into as he is into me. To proclaim our love for one another over a bottle of wine. To say, “my life is better with you in it” and really mean it.
And, I think it’s...
I’ve been working since 7:30 AM this morning. Took a 30 minute eating break at 1:30 PM. And, I have another good 4 hours of working (hopefully).
This is called wanting something so bad you are willing to sacrifice everything you’ve got to reach it…
I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Randoms
Things..
I wake up in the middle of the night most nights these days with terrible anxiety. The kind that suffocates you. It makes me scared to go to sleep.
There were two rats in our office that were eventually caught yesterday. I saw one of them enter our office and screamed bloody murder. This is for all the people who think my job is “glamorous.”
I really, really need a...
“I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and...”
– (via ellipsistohope)
A Letter
Dear Los Angeles,
I owe you an apology. For as long as I can remember, I wanted to live in the heart of you. Then it happened a little over a year ago.
And then I expected. I sat waiting for you to discover me, wow me, seduce me, shower me with abundance. I wanted you to be interested in me instead of me being interested in you. I wanted to take instead of give. So I huffed and puffed and...
Here is a secret… I’m a country girl at heart.
the day after
I ate lunch at a little Mexican joint. I cleared off my plate in seconds due to fatigue. Still had 40 minutes to spare, so I sat watching a father play with his daughter.
It didn’t make me want to have kids or even a husband really, yet there was something soothing about watching them count the cars on the street and name the different colors. Her dad said, “Don’t forget...
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erica lee xo: “This is when the magic happens:... →
ericaleexo:
“This is when the magic happens: right when you feel like everything is going wrong, shift your attitude to accept that it’s actually going right. Our judgments of how we think our life should be are preventing us from reaching our Highest Potential. If you’re going through a storm, hold the…
12:40 AM. And, that’s a wrap.
the night before
For some, tomorrow is about football. For me, it’s about shooting my short.
I’m extremely nervous. I’ve always had stage fright. The worst possible kind, so I’m not surprised.
Tomorrow eight people are donating their talent and time to bring a vision of mine to life. I guess I have what it takes to become a producer, after all. I mean getting people to work for free...
Like I said my mind has been so preoccupied lately. I’m going to be moving out on my own for the first real time in my life at the end of the month.
Normally, I thrive on this kind of change. The year started with a new watch, a new car and now a new home. While I really want this change, I’m finding myself resisting it a lot. Oh mind, you wander to such messy places sometimes....