full circle
I’ll admit the last couple of months have put a toll on me for many different reasons.
Adjusting to the demands of my career as well as my home life has really left me flustered. I learned one very important thing about myself through this process — I need a safe place to go home to at night. A place that is nice and tidy and encourages me and my dreams. I feel like the big wide world can sometimes be a brutal place, so we go home to rejuvenate. Home hasn’t felt like that for me in awhile. I also learned I do better when my physical space is in order otherwise I feel as if everything is in chaos.
Of course, we can’t always control what happens and to be successful at life you have to roll with the punches. BUT, I think it’s important to know ourselves and make certain things a priority. I probably could have handled the home front better and that was a lesson learned… to know what does and doesn’t work for me.
But today I found out my application got approved for the apartment that I want. Oh, I’m SO excited about the area. There is a juice bar walking distance and I have a patio with a kinda view of the Hollywood Hills. Plus my own covered parking space and even a rooftop pool to boot. It’s isn’t super fancy, but it’s going to be mine. I haven’t lived alone much in my life, but I’m really, really looking forward to it this time.
I’ve lived in Los Angeles for a little over a year now, but I feel like this is different. I get to discover this city on my own terms for the first time. This city is crazy. It really has the gumption to try and eat you alive. But if you are still enough, hold out long enough, you hear the whisper of the angels… Behind the madness lurks the place where dreams do come true and you get to follow your heart and passion and your work becomes creating every single day. Pretty awesome.
After months of rain, I feel the sun shining on again. As always lessons learned, things lost and things gained.
I move next week. Can I just say a little, “yay!” Okay, I’m saying it, Yay!
